tonight i got the call that i have been dreading for a while now, my grandmother passed away tonight a litttle after 10pm

the worst part is that she was by herself in va because my grandfather is in ky with my parents because they are closing on their new house tomorrow morning and he wanted to be there

my mom said that the drs said that she went fast and without pain though so that is good, i just cant belive that this has happened, in just a month i was going to go see her

i feel horrible because i havent talked to her in a while and now i will never talk to her again or see her again.

all i want to do is go drive but it is storming out really bad and my tires are shot so thats like a death wish, when i am upset i drive and now i cant this sucks

i will miss my grandma and dunno how i am gonna deal with this, i have had grandparents pass before but i wasnt close to them, i have never had to deal with people passing that have been close to me this is something new

sorry for venting on here but you guys are like my other family

 

Sorry to hear that Jen.

 

i'm so sorry to hear Jen

 

LG I am VERY sorry to hear this
I think maybe you can imagine why it would hit home w/Mom as I know EXACTLY what you mean/how you feel bout not being able to talk to her again
I go thru that every time I leave Charlie and its extreemly difficult

Yes I have gone thru it many times not knowing if & luckily have seen him again but I sure know how your feeling!

:BIGHUGS: and no don't go drive your car right now

I'm here if ya need 2 talk

 

Sorry to hear, Jen. Remember all the good times you've had together and look up and smile at her each time you remember one - and you can feel great knowing she is smiling back at you. I'm sure that it would make her happiest to see you going full strength again, back on your feet.

 

thanks guys, its great to know that i have all of you here it really helps alot
this all hasnt really hit me yet, i guess cause i am here at home alone and nothing has been arranged yet you know?

im just kinda getting this all in waves. this is gonna be a hard next couple of weeks....the hardest will be when i go to va in july and her not being there, especially since i grew up there every summer i spent the entire summer there and she was there.

tomorrow is gonna be a hard day

and no i wont go drive i took a vicodin cause my headache and i cant vicodin and drive it sucks cause my headache sitll isnt gone

 

I'm so sorry Jen

 

it sucks i wanted to get recent pics of me and her next month cause she used to hate to have pics taken, but after all of her strokes she didnt really mind, its amazing how things change...the funny thing is the only pic that i really have of me and her is of me and her in bigbird she loved bigbird..she never really left the house and i remember when i first got bigbird she had to have me take her for a drive and she LOVED it and i actually got a pic of me and her in the car..everyone was amazed 1. that she went for a ride & she loved it and 2. that she took a pic

 

here is that pic, another amazing thing she was smiling in this pic she NEVER smiled in pics

06/2001

 

Sorry to hear Jen.


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