In the few days before I went to Edmonton, I was having relationship difficulties because my (then) current girlfriend and a girlfriend from my past shared some history and that history was interfering with my current relationship, to the point of my (then) current g/f and ex-g/f coming to blows. So my then current g/f asked me who I truly did love and I couldn't answer that because, honestly, I loved them both. I told her that "I don't know" when I should have said "Both", and with a solid slap across my face, my (then) current-g/f walked out of my life. Yes, I do understand that I am young and that these things will happen, it's part of growing up. While I was, and still am, hurting because of that, it's not the only reason I needed to do some soul searching.

A friend of mine from Junior High had moved over to Britain not long ago (less than two years). I have been keeping in close contact with her and was planning on paying her a visit next summer. Then, on Monday the 8th, her mother called me with some of the hardest news I have ever had to take in my life. My friend had died pursuant to injuries sustained from getting T-boned in her car. The family had requested that it stay out of the news (they are a very closed, tight family) but the mother had felt that I had the right to know as soon as possible.

To put it into simpler terms: I didn't want to accept what had happened as real. Losing a girlfriend I can handle, but pile the loss of a distance friend on top of that, and I just snapped. I reverted into myself and let my "other" self free. When my guard went down, the sh!t started to happen until I slapped myself in the face and decided that I needed to get a life and stop taking out my feelings online, so I informed you all of my decision to retire for a few weeks.

I have had the time off now (I used the edmonton trip to get my mind off everything) to think about what's happened and sort out how I feel about life and love. I would like to inform you all that even though I am still hurting a lot, I am back. Just don't expect me to be very enthusiastic for a while.

Thank you for your time

Simon

PS: To any of you that showed some support before I left: thanks.

 

Welcome back to the fold Simon, that is an awful lot to happen to anyone in a short period of time

If it helps at all, you know there is a lot of goodwill right here on the board for you

Chris

 

Well, I want everyone to know that I am *NOT* digging for sympathy... I want to just explain why what happened DID happen

And thanks, Tifosi It's good to be back I'll be getting back into the full swing of my meaningless and humorous posts sometime soon

 

I'm sorry for what has happened in your life LordVagabond. Just try to remember that everything happens for a reason and this is how life is. No one said it was fair or going to be good all of the time. It's how we respond to these types of situations that make us who we are.

 

Thank you Dario... that's the reason I said I wouldn't be around for a while... I needed the time to and and then figure out how I felt

 

I know its hard right now..but things will get better!! I know I have been there, You will have you good days and bad days...hopefully you will have more good days. We are your online family and were are here anytime you need us.

Hope you are doing better..glad to see you back.

 

All I gotta say, is that this is a great place to be when one is feeling down.

 

Redbullet: thanks I'm happy to be "back" per se (it is, after all, *ONLY* a website, but hey, it's a nice place )

 

Hey Simon-

We don't know eachother but that doesn't stop me from meaning this.

I'm sorry. It's terrible to lose a friend. You'll get over the girlfriend thing, I'm sure and you may end up being friends later. The friend is differnet.

I know you're not looking for sympathy but my heart goes out to you and your friend's family.

Life is short, amigo. My motto has been to plan for tomorrow but live for today. I try and make the most of every moment I have and I don't hesitate to tell my family and friends how much they mean to me. I've already lost too many friends and family in my 30 short years and I have no intentions of losing someone else without them knowing what they mean to me. I would encourage you to do the same.

Hang in there, bud. Things will get better.

Christian "Da Hapa" Asis

 

Good to see you again. Sorry about your misfortunes. Keep that head up high and it will get better with time.