be strong, dont look back

 

I appreciate all the responses. Thanks guys!

LT'S S2K, sorry I understand exactly how you feel. We're going through the same thing right now.
bboersma, I have an S already but that doesn't make me any happier unfortunately.
Siepel, my academic work suffered because of this relationship. I'm not advancing anywhere right now...
Spa02S2K, I totally agree with what you said I do think she has lost the spark on her end. I know she's ok with the break up.

I forgot to mention some things, we broke up before. A week later either she or I calls back and everythings good again. I'm sure that if I call back right now everything will be good again. That is not what I want right now, I know it's bad for me. Because I love her so much I can forgive her, no matter what she does. But the fact that she will never apologize sincerely, problems will return and her not being IN LOVE with me voids it.

I ponder all the time, trying to figure out what I did wrong. I see some of my mistakes and dwell on the guilt, that makes me feel terrible. I realized that buying things that I really want helps me deal with depression but I haven't been happy for the past few months. Which means that I'm in debt, so that is not an option. Before i purchased the s2k I thought that it would solve all my problems, I will never be unhappy. Now that I have it, I realize that it doesn't make me any happier driving it. I don't even know what I want now. I invested a lot into this relationship, it seems like she just left me and I'm left with nothing. No appreciation for what I did for her whatsoever, how can she be so cold hearted?!?!?!

I really hate that guy and I really want to make him pay for what he is doing to me. I forgot to mention that I leave her voice msgs. sometimes. She deletes it right after she listens to it, she does the same for her friends also. But for this faggot, she saves a couple of his voice msgs. WTF! I know this is only behaviour but I realized that they've been talking a lot online and on the phone over the holidays. I do not have any hard evidence that she's cheating, at this point I don't think she is YET. I'm pretty good at snooping but I don't wanna be doing that because I hate to find bad things. I have a gut feeling she is developing a liking for him. This guy attends the same school and also has the same major. Maybe they connect better.

I know she still has feelings for me but I know it's not a whole lot....I'm so lost, she meant the whole world to me.

 

Bro' things happen for a reason....I have been divorced for almost a year now and let me tell you, the first couple of months were complete hell and I went back and forth about my decision.....

First, don't second guess yourself. Stand strong and in a few weeks you will feel better, more relaxed and with less stress.

Second, people make mistakes. If later on you realized in fact that you made a mistake, be a man and admit to it.

Things happen for a reason and sometimes it is for the best. Keep your chin up no matter what!

Angel

 

if she knows what she is missing, she'll call you. but i wouldn't sit around and wait for her call. life is too short. go out and make an effort to have fun with your friends.

 

Be strong man, i know its so hard, but you are still young and you need to look away. Don't try to be just "Friends", i know its hard, i have the same problem right now too. U have to cut her off from your life completly, i know it feels like such a waste of time, energy, money, and love. its going to be very hard for the next couple of month, but i am glad you drawn the line and broke up, instead of letting the relationship to hang there artifacially like I did. When u and ur girl starts to think about what to say to each other, then thats the time to end the relationship. Break ups are harsh, especially when you still love her, but don't fall into the "lets still be friend", it will just drag it on and make u even more sad down the road. U need to let her go.
Be strong, lol

 

Hey KC3,
I'd like to say a couple of things. Each point will be followed by cliche but I believe them.

First, if you throw away your future (bad academic grades) because of a girl who (you think) doesn't even love you, then it's just..how do I put this delicately..not smart. Just concentrate on school. Get good grades then a good job. The best revenge is living well.

Second, you're still young. There are other fishes in the ocean. The key is to make yourself attractive to those other fishes. Being a loser with no job is not a good way to go about it. Driving a pimped S2k is a good start.

Isn't there something you always wanted to do? With all this free time you can finally do that. (or at least increase your PPD)

Third, you are not left with nothing. You have happy memories together. Even though you may not speak to her again, you still have the happy memories. 'Tis better to have love and lost than...(you know the rest).

 

[QUOTE]Originally posted by S2020
[B]Hey KC3,
I'd like to say a couple of things.

 

I have a similar situation. Everyone is going to say don't call her but you are going to think about her no matter what so why torture yourself, CALL HER. Of course that's just my opinoin, I could be wrong....

 

There are greener pastures out there...

 

Hey thanks Z06-Killr.

OK!