Do some of these meds impair your ability to drive? Or do work? I think most work as inhibitors of specific pathways in the brain, somewhat like alcohol, which dilutes the concentration of neurotransmitters (hence delayed reaction, poor judgment, etc.). The problem is, I don't know how deep these medicines are going to affect me, and I really don't want to be jumping from drug to drug while I'm in college trying to juggle biology and chemistry on a daily basis. What about insomnia?

 

I am surprised that pot helps balance you out. I find it creates such an awareness in me that I begin focusing on every little detail of everything physical or mental and overanalyze ridiculous things. The movie-typical response where I could sit and talk for hours with genuine interest and concern about how the world would be different if we could breath under water, or paranoia for things like big brother, etc etc etc.

I find alcohol is a far greater mellower for me, but it seems that's proof of different "medication" and reaction to it from different people.

 

I don't have any thoughts when I'm drunk. I'm just drunk. Getting high has always been a pleasure for me. Most of my thoughts have come while listening to music. I'm all about set and setting. Get in the right mindset and it never fails to satisfy. Having obtuse conversations is always fun, too. Only thing I do not like about pot are the physical side effects, like the laziness, red/squinty eyes, dry throat, etc. Alcohol is worse for me, though.

 

Yes, weed will make things better as long as you're high. After that it will make things far worse. I have read and talked to a lot experienced people before reaching my conclusion. The half life of THC is pretty long, so a chronic smoker will continue accumulating it and it will change your neuro chemical balance forever. Besides a biological point, it will alter your personality by having a certain mind set for a while.

My vote: drug free life is best!

 

Half life refers to decomposition of substances sitting there, not in your body. Your body is constantly changing. Unless, of course, you're dead, and everything in your body is simply stagnant. THC gets stored in your fat cells until it gets flushed away. Exercise, fluids, and so on aid in cleaning it out of your body.

If you get high all day and sit on a couch, that's a different story. I'd be more worried about weight gain from munchies in that case however.

The point is, if you can use it constructively, I see nothing wrong with it. If you're smoking and neglecting yourself, then smoking should be the least of your worries.

 

Well I went home this weekend and spoke to my mom about some things. Apparently there are two instances of mental illness in my family, one on my mom's side and one on my dad's.

On my dad's side, his father's younger sister had some severe mental problems (this was all occurring when I was a little boy, still in Beirut). Aunt Janine, apparently loved me and would chase me around to hold me. My mom would get upset because she wanted me to be left alone and to play with my toys and what not. Anyways, she was missing for some time until the family got a call from the morgue. She was found in the middle of a field, dead from ingestion of rat poison (suicide).

On my mom's side, one of her cousins also had mental issues. She does not know much because he lived in Canada while we were in the States. All she really heard about him was that he was an extremely smart guy, studied engineering in France, somewhere along the line he didn't show up for work two days in a row, so they went to his house and found he had hung himself.

I'm going to have to explain these stories to the psychiatrist this Thursday.

I'm starting to feel like the sleep I get is completely unsatisfactory. Even if I sleep for a full 8 hours, I wake up exhausted, unwilling to get out of bed. I go about my day tired, half asleep. For some reason, it is not refreshing.

Also, a thought. Does my mind recognize that I have a problem, and in order to "cope", it subconsciously diverts my thoughts to anything and everything, to sort of keep me busy? Is that why I'm always worried about everything? It seems as if my mind is trying to distract my attention from the deeper issues by coming up with all sorts of scenarios and thoughts, one after the other. Anyone else feel this way sometimes?

 

Psychiatrist gave me Ritalin 10 for ADD. IDK if it works.

Had my first experience with lysergic acid diethylamide Friday after Phil Lesh and Friends stopped by the Tweeter center, and it's made me feel better about myself

Hehehe

 

There's something you definately need to experiment with.... NOT.

 

Could be a sign of sleep apnea, could be a sign of severe depression

 

hahahahahahaha,

just funny to me since i feel like the total opposite of you. wake up take 5 minute or less showers put something on and go out. not to mention that my s2000 resembles its owner when it comes to tidyness and looks.

i always go out in public with that "i dont care look"

you should really hang out more often with people like me, maybe then you would get comfortable enough to just be like f@ck it and who cares.