Pot has screwed up your mind.

I have a friend who always has to have earphones in his ears, otherwise he'd freak out.

 

This is a really common concern for people who are offered meds. I would argue that it's this undiagnosed condition (whether it's anxiety or anything else), that is actually changing your personality.

If medication is suggested, you might want to talk to people (or look online) for people's perspective about their experiences with medication.

 

I don't think pot did anything HORRIBLE to my mind. I will say that I have slight hallucinations even when I am not high. Hanging ceilings are VERY interesting, with all the little holes in them. They look like cells flowing through vessels. Helps me get through class lol. Also, wavy rugs move like the ocean if I look hard enough. There is this weird neon green bath rug at my mom's that I love to stare at.

Honestly, I've made more friends through pot in college than I would have otherwise. The only negative side effects from smoking are that my eyes literally shut and glow red, and my voice gets hoarse. My mom has almost caught me several times because her mom smoked her teeth away (cigarettes) so she knows within a nanosecond whether or not I've smoked because of how dry my mouth gets.

It's also part of what helps me evaluate my own thoughts. Prior to seeing the counselor I had no idea how to assess my thoughts, but after a few meetings with him, I got used to paying attention to the words scrolling across my mind, and the past few weeks that I was still using I noticed better recognition of what my mind was going through, particularly when I smoke.

Waiting on some doctors to get back to me. It's so hard to find someone available. All of the psychiatrists at my local hospital (at home) are booked for the next 3 months or so. Shareall, I guess my current personality is what I've gotten used to.

 

Dude,

Think about what all you are saying. Will it kill you to at least lay off of the drugs for a while?

Your story does sound a lot like the beginning of schizophrenia. Please for your own sake get a psychiatriac diagnosis.

I've heard a lot of stories about schizophrenia. Yours sounds similar to the beginnings of them. You are the right age. Family history is not a necessity.

Get some help for your own sake. People that don't get help and refuse to do the prescribed therapy end up going downhill fast and dead in their 20's quite often after ruining the lives of their loved ones too.

 

Dude increased anxiety was my main reason to quit smoking weed. I've talked and observed a lot of smokers, and it seems to be a common problem. I would really recommend you to quit smoking. It takes a while before you come back to being normal and you will see/feel the benefits.

the other thing is to surround yourself with positive people. People who in the past might not have been cool enough for you. Also try and enjoy the simple things in life like a good meal, some pleasant company, watching favorite movie or show...

Good Luck! you can do better if that's what "YOU" want.

 

Could be genetic...not weed related.

 

I'd still back way off on the weed.

A) If quitting weed makes any appreciable difference to your financial situation: You smoke way to much weed.

B) If your eyes swell shut and are beet red and you are hoarse: You smoke way to much weed.

C) If are prone to hallucinations with or without weed and you smoke any weed at all: You smoke way to much weed.

You might want to follow up with the Psychiatrist and at least consider any recommended medication if only to see how it goes.

Its been my experience that most people who won't take the medication because it seems to "erase" their personality should really be taking the medication.

 

[QUOTE=C U AT 9K,Oct 1 2007, 03:05 PM]I don't think pot did anything HORRIBLE to my mind. I will say that I have slight hallucinations even when I am not high.

 

If people looked at their family tree, some may find "eccentric" or mysterious relatives who may have also had major mental disorders. This stuff has only been (relatively) recently discussed in an open way.

 

I haven't been living on the street while smoking, I'm not saying I need money to feed myself.

Your eyes turn red when you smoke because it raises your blood pressure. 2 drops and I'm cured. I don't know anyone who doesn't get squinty eyes...


Other than that, I appreciate all the comments from everyone. Perhaps one of the hardest things for me to do is feel comfortable enough to share some of my emotions. Although I have barely scratched the surface, I know I need to find help. I don't even feel comfortable talking about this stuff with my parents. While marijuana and shrooms have been some of the greatest experiences of my life, I definitely need to set limits for myself. I have a hard time keeping myself on a moderate path, but I will seek whatever help I can get.

Anyone else that would like to share their experiences/comments, please do!