She's likely to have a tough road to recovery and she's going to need you and her other friends to be strong and be there for her. Chances are good she'll need to go through chemotherapy and she'll be sick from it and lose her hair. Just be there for her.

I hope by now you've gotten some good news.

 

Man... she called me crying today, they found a small tumor in her brain... last night her kidney failed when she stopped breathing. She told me the doctors said shes terminal...

I have been crying all day... I'm talking to her on the phone right now and were having great conversation, it didnt start off that way, I had to cheer her up. She was trying really hard to shut me out and be alone but I made her stay on the phone.

It hurts so bad, I hope that there is some miracle that will happen, she is the sweetest girl ever. My voicemail is filled with her messages, my texts are all from her... if thats gone, I don't know what I'll do.

Its the weirdest thing to talk to someone when you know they might not be around soon after... especially when you love them.

Anyway... just thought I'd give you guys an update even though it isnt a good one.

 

damn that is terrible, sorry to hear...hopefully the doctors are wrong about that.

 

wow. sorry to hear.
good luck

 

Sorry to hear that. Seems like a lot of people have been sick or dying recently. Your friend, Beanseff's bro in law, a couple of people I know personally. It really sucks.

The best thing you can do is be there for her. She's really going to need you.

 

Yeah, were talking still, and its like nothing is happening. Shes so happy. I'm singing to her on the phone to make her happy... I just hope she pulls through. Thanks for your support guys

 

I said, support, not TORTURE!

 

hahaha she loves my voice somehow... I guess shes tone deaf hahaha.

Well I was talking to her more about the situation today and the tumor in her brain is small but her brain is bleeding a little. I know its serious but its good that they haven't put a valve in her head to drain pressure, so thats a good sign. Its also a good sign that they are still taking care of the issue which means its not too late.

They took another sample of her bone marrow today and tomorrow she will find out the results and what they are going to do about the tumor. She will have to go through one of two things, the easier of the two is the laser treatment that will burn the cancerous tissue. If its more serious she will have to go through surgery which I'm dreading.

I can't wait until she gets better. A humans will to live is amazing. I have a gut feeling she will be better. We talk about the future, my birthday is coming up followed by hers the week after, and we are talking about what presents we are going to get each other, and her companies formal event that I am going to the week after.

I hope she only has to do the laser treatment, shes gone through enough already. After that she will probably go through chemo again.

In the beginning, she was begging me to let her skip her chemo. If I said yes, she would have. Not that I would have ever said yes, but I'm really glad I told her to do her chemo because they wouldnt have found what they did in time. I'm in love with this girl guys, and she has to beat this.

 

I sadly don't have any info I can give you. But I simply cannot explain the amount of respect I have for you right now. I know if I was in your position I would not be able to be half as strong as you are or seem to be now.

I understand your situation and your pain. I know it's late but I was actually going to do some prayers I usually do. I will keep her and you in my thoughts and prayers.

Good luck sir. Keep us updated if time becomes available for you.

 

I appreciate it man ^. Its just the weirdest feeling talking to her like nothing is wrong when I know that she may be gone forever soon. I have to push those thoughts away. Deep down, I know she will be ok... as weird as it sounds its almost like a message.

She tells me she loves me so much on the phone and I say the same. I tell her I can't wait until we can be together (Shes in a Chemo center that only allows direct family to visit).

It's hard I know, but I know she will pull through and this will make us that much closer. Shes sleeping on the phone now, and I have to be at work at 9:30 (its 3:40 right now) but I don't care. Shell probably wake back up in a minute and we'll end up talking until 7 like we always do.

I just hope she gets "good" news tomorrow so she doesnt get into a distant mood again and try to push everyone away. Thanks for keeping us in your thoughs I'll post more as I know it!